Old and New....

Over the weekend we had my cousin Nikki's two boys overnight on Saturday for a sleep-over party. We picked up the boys at their home Saturday afternoon in our SUV that we got four years ago. When we purchased the car we had hopes of filling up the extra space with a child of our own someday. Before their dad Shaun had the bags in the car the boys were in the backseat setting up. Justin is four and is still using the older kids car-seat that I had just registered for a week ago. Colin is six and only needed a small booster seat. Seconds after they piled into our now older SUV, they realized we had dvd player in the back. The excitement in their faces made all the years that we have not been able to use the dvd player, seem to fade away fast. Wow, can we watch a movie! Kung Fu Panda was chosen, and off we went on our weekend adventure... As we drove to and from our destinations over the next two days Andrew and I got to experience life with kids in the back. The boys faces only minutes after we started the movie were priceless. They stared in awe at the screen, it was the best. Later on as we drove home from the aquarium, Justin fell asleep in the back with his thumb in his mouth and his head dangling down moving with every turn, while Colin laughed to himself watching the last half of Kung Fu Panda. Andrew and I held hands as I glanced into the back every so often. He would check in the mirror at stops and look over at me and smile. In those moments in our older SUV we began to feel something new that Andrew and I had so desperately wanted for so long. We are about to be "in waiting" for our own child, and this weekend we had these two boys that we love as much as humanly possible give us a gift that we have wanted for years. It is a gift that comes with no price tag attached, a moment in our lives that was so hard to picture at one point, and now someday soon it will be our reality. So thank you both so very much Justin and Colin, for giving us those moments, letting our hearts feel, something that we tried not to for so long.